Nicola Shaw
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Who Am I?I am a 30yr old Semi-Closet Transvestite. I do go out as Nicola Shaw, although not as often as I'd like to! Where Am I from?I live the in boring county of Staffordshire, the centre of no where, with little or no TV scene. Why do I dress and when did I start?Well, this is the million dollar question that we all get asked isn't it girls? I dress basically because I love to, its mainly a desire to pass as a female, coupled with a sexual turn on. Ok, first of all, I am what I class to be a Transvestite, Tranny or Tv. I like to fully dress as a woman as often as I can trying to look as passable as possible. I am not an Undie Wearer or CD, who I tend to class as someone who purely just wears womens underwear, or dresses but does not pass, or even try to pass. Also, I am not Transsexual. I have not had, nor do I intend to have any form of Gender Realignment Surgery. I massively respect and admire the girls who have or are undergoing such surgery, but thats not for me. I am happy being a TV, dressing when I can, but intend on keeping my meat and two veg! I love to go the whole hog, wig, make-up and high heels :) I adore dressing and becoming a girl for a few hours whenever possible. For me this can be a sexual process, I do enjoy this and have a sense of arousal, but not always, and this is not the be all and end all of my dressing. To sum up why I dress and how I feel when dressed, I would say I feel very feminine, comfortable, relaxed, elegant, sexual and happy. I guess my earliest memory of cross dressing is when I was 5 or 6. I can remember being fascinated my women, and in particular how great their legs looked in tights and high heels. It was at this age that I first crept into my Mums room to pinch and try on her tights. As I got older this progressed to lingerie and skirts / dresses. They all were a terrible fit being way too big, but that was it, I was hooked for life as I started down the long, winding road of Transvestitism, but just hadn't quite realised it! I continued to dress until my early teens when I realised what I am, and panicked. I was disgusted with myself, feeling that what I was doing was wrong, and that I was the only one to do this. For the next few years I tried to deal with the all too familiar feelings of guilt. I would stop dressing, saying that this would be the last time I would do it, and after a week or two, or even a month or two, that supressed desire would just grab hold of me and I'd just have to dress, so back to my moms room I would creep! I began to accept what I was in my mid-teens, but found it very difficult. I hated wearing my moms stuff as it wasn't my taste so wanted to buy my own. I found this far too scary so settled at just buying my own tights and stockings. I would have to keep anything that I bought hidden, so was limited to what I could buy, so for the next few years my dressing mainly consisted of tights & if I was lucky, stockings. I was 19 when I properly accepted what I am, and started buying clothes, lingerie, shoes etc and dressing fully. But like all TVs I threw away all of my clothes & wigs, but the urge came back, and niccys wardrobe has grown and expanded even more. Who knows that I dress?A few TV friends, but no one else, so welcome to my world!!! |
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